Sometimes life comes along and, from my perspective, it seems as if it is trying to suck me into illusion, by which I mean that something happens and, for whatever reason, guilt or fear or doubt rear their ugly little heads and it’s, “goodbye peace!” The good news is that I know it doesn’t need to be that way. When Truth has come, Peace comes with it. The even better news is that by now, I recognize such events are sign markers – like some huge neon light proclaiming, “This still needs healing!”
This happens when I am not ready to begin my day (as in real estate work) but I have arisen too late to keep it from encroaching on my daily routine. What I know is that the day suffers when I do not take time to do my daily lesson and to write. I suffer. Those around me suffer. I need my spiritual practices. I need to anchor myself in Truth. But Truth isn’t removed from life. It is life.
Now, historically, my MO has been to feel resentful towards these encroachments. But why would I feel resentful towards that which is trying desperately to help me heal my soul? They are tests of sorts. I have to master these levels of challenge if I ever hope to stop facing them. The part of me that wants to pretend that all of this evolution happens in a bubble wants the solitude. So I am learning what it means to teach love and be in a world that will forever fail to live up to ego’s expectations. Whenever I allow the idea that things should be different than they are to enter my mind, I have embraced illusion.
Because I know there are still errors in my mind if I am still under the misconception that things should not be as they are. Truth is here. Am I seeing it?
“When truth has come it does not stay a while, to disappear or change to something else. It does not shift and alter in its form, nor come and go and go and come again. It stays exactly as it always was, to be depended on in every need, and trusted with a perfect trust in all the seeming difficulties and the doubts that the appearances the world presents engender. They will merely blow away, when truth corrects the errors in your mind.”
Interestingly enough, when I can locate that place within myself that accepts what is as being just as it should be, life seems to arrange itself. It squeezes in the pieces that need to be tended to without the disruption that accompanies grievances. In other words, when I give up thinking that things should be different, when I welcome the phone call or the email that seems to disrupt the pattern I think I want, then things actually arrange themselves much more efficiently.
“When truth has come it harbors in its wings the gift of perfect constancy, and love which does not falter in the face of pain, but looks beyond it, steadily and sure. Here is the gift of healing, for the truth needs no defense, and therefore no attack is possible. Illusions can be brought to truth to be corrected. But the truth stands far beyond illusions, and can not be brought to them to turn them into truth.”
In reality, it’s easier. But only if I give up thinking I know what anything is for. Only if I am willing to accept that God has a better plan than me. Only if I remember that healing doesn’t occur in a bubble, it involves my brothers. I can’t teach love in a vacuum. It requires interaction with other people.
That is the main lesson these days: I think this is a solo gig, but it’s not. There is no separation and therefore I have to learn to embrace the “other people” components that are part of it. I can’t do that when I am thick in the quagmire of grievances.
I do not know what anything is for. But I bless it all. I trust that Truth has come. It is present in the situation because God is present and Love is present and my job is to hold the high watch and see it.
But dang, sometimes it is messy! Yet when I give up judging it, it tends to right itself.
Because Truth has come.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.