How easy it can be to slip into old habits that fail to serve my highest interests! This is the impetus behind writing daily, for without my daily practice, I can sucked into the quotidian drama of egoic life. Rather than trusting in whatever is happening, I slip into thinking it is mine to control. It’s silly, really, after all this time. Makes me think of the Rumi quote, “Even after all this time the sun never says to the earth, ‘You owe me.’ Look what happens with a love like that. It lights the whole sky.”
It lights the whole sky!
That’s what faith in God does: it lights the whole sky. Today’s lesson: God is the light in which I see.
That is what happens in the comfort of acceptance, of loving what is rather than trying to manipulate it into egocentric ideas of what would be pleasing. If humans were in control of how the earth circles the sun, there would, no doubt, be conflicting notions of how we would be best served. It is the perfect metaphor for surrender; for trusting that no matter the appearance, life is happening in divine right order.
Lately, when I find myself tempted to think things should be different than they are, I listen to the cacophony of life and notice what is love; what are calls for love.
What is love is singular. Calls are plural. They are lost souls wandering around trying to find their ways home.
Yet God is as constant as the sun, there behind the clouds, waiting in total certainty of Its role. God is the light in which I see.
Today’s ACIM lesson says, “You cannot see in darkness, and you cannot make light. You can make darkness and then think you see in it, but light reflects life, and is therefore an aspect of creation. Creation and darkness cannot coexist, but light and life must go together, being but different aspects of creation.”
Light reflects life.
Even after all this time…
The longer I study, I engage in feeble attempts to train my mind to remember these lessons, to stay in the certainty of God, the better I get at remembering. So often, I do these lessons badly, forgetting the practice periods as I get caught up in my day. Yet, even so-called “bad” progress is progress. I am incapable of properly assessing my own progress. The important thing is not that I judge myself for that progress but that I persist.
I came across these quotes this morning:
“It is better to take many small steps in the right direction than to make a great leap forward only to stumble backward.”
– Louis Sanchar
“Nothing can dim the light that shines from within.” – Maya Angelou
Over and over, I practice seeing past appearances. Over and over, I remind myself that just because I am not always good at “seeing,” does not change Reality. As the Course says, “He has not gone because your eyes are closed.”
God lights up the whole sky, all of life, all with love. So when I am tempted to think there is something that I must change, I get quiet. I sink past the thoughts of the whole and into the peace of God.
Because no matter what, God is present and God is Good.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.