You’d have thought we had a tree with a bazillion presents under it, we were up so early. Like small children, Christmas innocents excited to see what Santa brought them, my husband and I were up at the crack of well-before dawn. I hadn’t planned on doing the gift thing so early but since we were up…
I’ve had enough Charlie Brown Christmases to know that it’s not about the presents. We’ve had more than our share of pathetic anti-Christmas Christmases, and even though my sheer determination not to be pathetic has pulled most of those at least partway out of the crapper, I must say that it felt good to feel like we weren’t deserving a pity party this year. Not that it was extravagant. It wasn’t. But for the first time in a few years it actually felt like we could afford Christmas, like we weren’t going to be going through months of over-spending regret all so we wouldn’t feel like total losers on Christmas morning.
Last night, I got to speak and sing at the Christmas Eve service. I think I did well, although to be honest, I’m not really sure what I said or if any of it even made sense. What I remember was my passion. What I remember was being a conduit of love. It was an awesome gift. It was Spirit telling me I can do this. I got to talk about A Course in Miracles. I got to remind people that their only function is love. None of the rest of it matters.
And I sang O Holy Night; it was a prelude to the final speaker’s talk which was just what that song means metaphysically. I’m fairly certain I had at least part of the audience in tears (because it moved them so not because I was that bad!). People congratulated me afterwards and I forced myself to just accept the compliments although in some ways it felt a little fraudulent to take credit for what Spirit did. I guess I was accepting thanks for being a good vessel. I don’t know. I try not to think about these things too much. I just want everyone to realize how much God loves them.
The message was one of innocence. That the Christmas story is really about the blessing of innocence being given to the world. We are not guilty sinners: we are innocents. Yes, we make mistakes, but God is not confused or disturbed by our mistakes. He knows the outcome. He knows that no matter how far astray his children roam that they are destined to return home to Him. Our illusions are just what we decide we want to experience, but it cannot and will not change the changeless.
All the Goodness, the Beauty, the Love, the Harmony – all that is God. Light is not lessened by us being in darkness. We have not let in the Light that was and is always there. We have chosen to hide ourselves. Choose again.
What I love about the Course and about Science of Mind is that it recognizes that despite being taught that we are something that we are not (worthless sinners), our misperceptions cannot change the truth of who and what we are. God does not believe in our misperceptions. We cannot change the Changeless. We can increase it through our love, but we cannot change God with our illusions.
I love knowing this. I love that I am not conflicted or confused because the Course has taught me that there is nothing to be confused about.
This is the passage I read from the Course last night.
2 The sign of Christmas is a star, a light in darkness. See it not outside yourself, but shining in the Heaven within, and accept it as the sign the time of Christ has come. He comes demanding nothing. No sacrifice of any kind, of anyone, is asked by Him. In His Presence the whole idea of sacrifice loses all meaning. For He is Host to God. And you need but invite Him in Who is there already, by recognizing that His Host is One, and no thought alien to His Oneness can abide with Him there. Love must be total to give Him welcome, for the Presence of Holiness creates the holiness that surrounds it. No fear can touch the Host Who cradles God in the time of Christ, for the Host is as holy as the perfect Innocence which He protects, and Whose power protects Him.
3 This Christmas give the Holy Spirit everything that would hurt you. Let yourself be healed completely that you may join with Him in healing, and let us celebrate our release together by releasing everyone with us. Leave nothing behind, for release is total, and when you have accepted it with me you will give it with me. All pain and sacrifice and littleness will disappear in our relationship, which is as innocent as our relationship with our Father, and as powerful. Pain will be brought to us and disappear in our presence, and without pain there can be no sacrifice. And without sacrifice there love must be.
So today, I invite you to reclaim innocence. Find your way back to that place where there is no judgment, no guilt, no sin. Just innocence. Mistakes that need correction perhaps, but innocence nonetheless. Remember who you are. You are love expressing. You are God’s precious child.
So on this Christmas morning, I pause and I give thanks: thanks for Christmas innocents and Christmas innocence; for a good Christmas; for a heart filled with love. Mostly, I give thanks to remember what this holiday season is really about. It truly feels like a lesson in miracles.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.