“Judgment and Love are opposites.” That is how today’s ACIM lesson, #352, begins, with this proclamation that reminds us (me) that if I am judging, I am not loving for I have decided I know better than the Holy Spirit. I have clearly forgotten that “I do not know what anything is for.” Lesson 96 asks, “Who can resolve the senseless conflicts which a dream presents? What could the resolution mean in truth? What purpose could it serve? What is it for? Salvation cannot make illusions real, nor solve a problem that does not exist.” When I have judged, I have decided that I know what the purpose is. I have, wittingly, usurped the role of the Holy Spirit. Today’s lesson is “Judgment and love are opposites. From one come all the sorrows of the world. But from the other comes the peace of God Himself.” It is a call to return to forgiveness for, “Forgiveness looks on sinlessness alone, and judges not.” It is a call to return to love. Because judgment and love are opposites, they cannot both exist simultaneously. Either we are judging or loving (which suspends judgment). Either we are teaching love or we are teaching fear. (“Yet you are always teaching.”) And what we teach is what we are learning. (“Next you learn that you learn what you teach, and that you want to learn peace. “) What is this for? If my goal is peace then it behooves me to recall that “The clarification of the goal belongs at the beginning, for it is this which will determine the outcome.” Judgment and love are opposites and I want to remember to always choose love, to always teach peace.
From last year’s writing:
In the world of duality, where there seems to be experiences of good and bad, more and less, right and wrong, there are quite obviously opposites; seeming opposites anyway. The truth is that those opposites only exist as the result of judgments. We divvied up life into pros and cons and then evaluated which column we wanted to hang our hats in. But part of what I love about the Course is its simplicity.
While it seems to be more of this same sort of discrimination of opposites, what the Course is really telling us is that we are learning to tell the “difference” between reality and illusion (“what is all encompassing can have no opposite”). Illusion is the part we made up – the tiny, mad idea that we could be separate from God. The simplicity is learning to distinguish between love and fear – which energy do you want to use as the basis for your decisions and actions? Today’s A Course in Miracles lesson begins with this proclamation. “Judgment and love are opposites.” The moment I think I know what something is for, I have judged it and squeezed love out of the equation. Seriously! If love is my goal, I can’t afford to judge anything . “Judge not, for you but judge yourself,” Jesus tells us in the Manual for Teachers. Judging is the Holy Spirit’s role, not ours. He won’t get confused and add ego to the mix. In other words, the Holy Spirit doesn’t dabble in creating illusions, only in correcting the perception of them.
As soon as I have started to judge anything myself, I have invited ego to party with me and we look like a couple of mean girls.
I don’t like mean girls. (Oops, judgment!) What I mean is, I prefer not to behave as if I don’t know who I am. I leave judging to the Holy Spirit and ask to be led back to love.
Judgment and love are opposites. From one
Come all the sorrows of the world. But from
The other comes the peace of God Himself.
Forgiveness looks on sinlessness alone, and judges not. Through this I come to You. Judgment will bind my eyes and make me blind. Yet love, reflected in forgiveness here, reminds me You have given me a way to find Your peace again. I am redeemed when I elect to follow in this way. You have not left me comfortless. I have within me both the memory of You, and One Who leads me to it. Father, I would hear Your Voice and find Your peace today. For I would love my own Identity, and find in It the memory of You.
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I awoke in gratitude this morning. That’s what happens when you study these lessons daily. Gratitude comes and grabs you by the hand to run through the street shouting out love to everyone. I was grateful because of my Tuesday Night ACIM group. It feels to me like it has evolved so much, and even though I “lead” the thing, it is seriously another opportunity for me to have some more veils lifted. My “students” catch me, and I love that. I love how we help each other to notice the errors in our thinking.
Only the love is real. The moment I have judged anything, I am turning off the love faucet. I am blocking my awareness to the love that is already present. And it takes practice and willingness and more practice and desire to stop doing that. The reason that not everyone does the Course is it’s hard to let go of ego, to relinquish judgment. I like feeling superior; feeling special and it sucks to give that up.
Until, of course, I realize that what I am doing is trading it for something much more precious than I could ever imagine on my own. I can never out-give God.
That’s the trippy thing about becoming willing to listen: synchronicity comes and finds you and blows your mind with the million little hints and clues, the God winks that show you, “Hey, I am right here, loving you, my precious child.”
This morning, I woke up and realized how foolish it was to worry about anything. Because, you know, I still catch myself daily fretting about the bills and calculating how to do this and should I do that.
Except, I don’t know what anything is for so why in the world am I asking my ego to figure it the fuck out? Why am I judging?
“1 Prepare you now for the undoing of what never was. If you already understood the difference between truth and illusion, the Atonement would have no meaning. The holy instant, the holy relationship, the Holy Spirit’s teaching, and all the means by which salvation is accomplished, would have no purpose. For they are all but aspects of the plan to change your dreams of fear to happy dreams, from which you waken easily to knowledge. Put yourself not in charge of this, for you cannot distinguish between advance and retreat. Some of your greatest advances you have judged as failures, and some of your deepest retreats you have evaluated as success.”
I have no idea how to judge anything successfully.
It’s all God. It’s all for good. All of it. Knowing that makes it less scary. Knowing that means I don’t have to fight any of it. I only need to do a mental check in. Where am I coming from? Judgment or love?
Last night, we were discussing “miscreation,” and how in a sense, even that is illusion. Since “Some of your greatest advances you have judged as failures, and some of your deepest retreats you have evaluated as success,” that should be a clue that I haven’t the faintest idea what any of it means. It is only in retrospect that I can notice the value, that I can see the love that was always present.
Don’t we grow strongest from the things we don’t think we can do? It is our challenges that determine our character. It’s not by having everything handed to us, easy-peasy piece of cake.
This is why gratitude is so damned important: it is the pausing to acknowledge the value of what is. It is seeing the love that is already there. Even in the shit. Even in the stuff that makes us want to pack up our toys and go home.
We already are home. God is within. Heaven is within. I am God’s home and it’s like childbirth: as much as you want to say, “Fuck it. I’m not having this baby. I’ve changed my mind,” you can’t. The only way out is through.
Practice. I practice saying ‘thank you’ to it all. The hard stuff and the easy stuff. The stuff I love and the stuff I’m still learning how to love.
Only the love is real.
When I appreciate what is, it’s easier. It’s easier to surrender to this intelligence that knows how to judge (Holy Spirit) than it is to give it to my ego mind that wants to figure out things that it isn’t even capable of understanding.
The human mind is incapable of “knowledge.” We can lift the veil, catch glimpses, but to be here, in the dream that we call life is to think we are not in eternity; to think that we are separate from God: to be in illusion. “1 All healing is release from the past. That is why the Holy Spirit is the only Healer. He teaches that the past does not exist, a fact which belongs to the sphere of knowledge, and which therefore no one in the world can know. It would indeed be impossible to be in the world with this knowledge. For the mind that knows this unequivocally knows also it dwells in eternity, and utilizes no perception at all. It therefore does not consider where it is, because the concept “where” does not mean anything to it. It knows that it is everywhere, just as it has everything, and forever.”
Let me repeat part of that:
“It would indeed be impossible to be in the world with this knowledge. For the mind that knows this unequivocally knows also it dwells in eternity, and utilizes no perception at all.”
My “miscreations” are only painful because I believe the illusions – I think that when I have made something unloving that I have sinned and been a bad girl and need to feel guilty. But I don’t know what anything is for. And besides, I am not really separate from God and He rigged the game by giving me the Holy Spirit to clean up my messes so to speak. “The Holy Spirit is God’s Answer to the separation.”
“2 The Holy Spirit is the spirit of joy. He is the Call to return with which God blessed the minds of His separated Sons. This is the vocation of the mind. The mind had no calling until the separation, because before that it had only being, and would not have understood the call to right thinking. The Holy Spirit is God’s Answer to the separation; the means by which the Atonement heals until the whole mind returns to creating.
3 The principle of Atonement and the separation began at the same time. When the ego was made, God placed in the mind the Call to joy. This Call is so strong that the ego always dissolves at Its sound. That is why you must choose to hear one of two voices within you. One you made yourself, and that one is not of God. But the other is given you by God, Who asks you only to listen to it. The Holy Spirit is in you in a very literal sense. His is the Voice that calls you back to where you were before and will be again. It is possible even in this world to hear only that Voice and no other. It takes effort and great willingness to learn.”
It is possible to hear only the Holy Spirit, but I have to want it. I have to come to the point where I recognize that if my goal is peace, then the way to get there is to listen to that Voice.
So I practice letting go of thinking I know what anything is for and give it to the Holy Spirit. A lot of times it doesn’t look like I think it ought to, but that’s okay.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.