Today’s ACIM lesson #331, There is no conflict, for my will is Yours and its companion, Section 12, What is the Ego? is the reminder that the ego is insane and so it is insanity to listen to its voice. As it says in the Clarification of Terms, “What is the ego? Nothingness, but in a form that seems like something. In a world of form the ego cannot be denied for it alone seems real.” This section makes it clear that while “it alone seems real,” “The ego is insane. In fear it stands beyond the Everywhere, apart from All, in separation from the Infinite. In its insanity it thinks it has become a victor over God Himself.” As we real each week in the Introduction, “What is all-encompassing can have no opposite.” I love this lesson because it illustrates beautifully how illogical it is to place my faith in the ego’s insanity. Once I recognize that is happening, it becomes easier to turn away from appearances and rely on God. Once I stop fighting reality and go with the flow in trust and peace, life gets easier. “There is no conflict, for my will is Yours.”
From last year’s writing:
It seems I spend a lot of time thinking/writing/walking about ego, which seems odd when I think about it since the ego is an illusion – the dream that we could be something we are not; that we could separate ourselves from that which we are. When I was reading this morning’s lesson, which begins with Section 12 What is Ego?, I read, “The ego is insane. In fear it stands beyond the Everywhere, apart from All, in separation from the Infinite,” and immediately recognized the impossibility of it. “It stands beyond everywhere, apart from All.” Yet how exactly would that work? Where is beyond everywhere? And how does one accomplish being apart from All? It is insanity, this idea that what is infinite has something outside of itself. If God is everywhere, where is the place that God is not?
I like logic. So I love seeing the impossibility of conflict in Oneness and Unity. I love seeing that a will apart from God’s has got to be nonsense, because if we are part of God then how could we be something that He isn’t? Clearly ego is idolatry – something made to take the place of God. In conventional religious thinking, this would be a sin, but yet the Course teaches that while we can be mistaken, we can’t actually “sin.” “There is no sin.” If we are part of God, how could there be sin? Clearly, this is delusional.
Section 12. What is the Ego?
The ego is idolatry; the sign of limited and separated self, born in a body, doomed to suffer and to end its life in death. It is the “will” that sees the Will of God as enemy, and takes a form in which it is denied. The ego is the “proof” that strength is weak and love is fearful, life is really death, and what opposes God alone is true.
The ego is insane. In fear it stands beyond the Everywhere, apart from All, in separation from the Infinite. In its insanity it thinks it has become a victor over God Himself. And in its terrible autonomy it “sees” the Will of God has been destroyed. It dreams of punishment, and trembles at the figures in its dreams; its enemies, who seek to murder it before it can ensure its safety by attacking them.
The Son of God is egoless. What can he know of madness and the death of God, when he abides in Him? What can he know of sorrow and of suffering, when he lives in eternal joy? What can he know of fear and punishment, of sin and guilt, of hatred and attack, when all there is surrounding him is everlasting peace, forever conflict-free and undisturbed, in deepest silence and tranquility?
To know reality is not to see the ego and its thoughts, its works, its acts, its laws and its beliefs, its dreams, its hopes, its plans for its salvation, and the cost belief in it entails. In suffering, the price for faith in it is so immense that crucifixion of the Son of God is offered daily at its darkened shrine, and blood must flow before the altar where its sickly followers prepare to die.
Yet will one lily of forgiveness change the darkness into light; the altar to illusions to the shrine of Life Itself. And peace will be restored forever to the holy minds which God created as His Son, His dwelling place, His joy, His love, completely His, completely one with Him.
There is no conflict, for my will is Yours.
How foolish, Father, to believe Your Son could cause himself to suffer! Could he make a plan for his damnation, and be left without a certain way to his release? You love me, Father. You could never leave me desolate, to die within a world of pain and cruelty. How could I think that Love has left Itself? There is no will except the Will of Love. Fear is a dream, and has no will that can conflict with Yours. Conflict is sleep, and peace awakening. Death is illusion; life, eternal truth. There is no opposition to Your Will. There is no conflict, for my will is Yours.
Forgiveness shows us that God’s Will is One, and that we share it. Let us look upon the holy sights forgiveness shows today, that we may find the peace of God. Amen.
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Even though, in some ways, espousing such beliefs feels delusional, there is a peace that comes from allowing myself to trust in the Goodness of God. It feels like relief.
“10 Salvation, perfect and complete, asks but a little wish that what is true be true; a little willingness to overlook what is not there; a little sigh that speaks for Heaven as a preference to this world that death and desolation seem to rule. In joyous answer will creation rise within you, to replace the world you see with Heaven, wholly perfect and complete. What is forgiveness but a willingness that truth be true? What can remain unhealed and broken from a unity which holds all things within itself? There is no sin. And every miracle is possible the instant that the Son of God perceives his wishes and the Will of God are one.”
When I relinquish my desire to act like I can be something I am not, when I give up trying to fight God, it feels as if a huge burden has been lifted. I don’t have to fight anything. I don’t have to question or judge or feel bad about anything that appears to be happening. I don’t have to understand any of it. I just have to stop and listen to instructions from God that tell me what I am supposed to do.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.
- “It’s not you, its me”: a Spiritual Badass gets Schooled in Love.(elephantjournal.com)