Today’s ACIM lesson, #278, If I am bound my Father is not free, states. “I have had many foolish thoughts about myself and my creation, and have brought a dream of fear into my mind.” This is something I have been thinking about a lot lately because I have been noticing how the experience of “not knowing” wants to muster up fears and turn apparitions into solid fiends. Instead of being curious as to how the perceived limitations could be escaped, my mind tends to return to the nightmares. I had this realization that there are only a few months left in the year and that we haven’t even filed last year’s taxes yet (and I’m told we will owe something) much less begun paying the estimated taxes I will owe for 2017. Yes, many foolish thoughts and my mind, not being able to conceive of how exactly all these pieces will fit comfortably wants to concoct an uncomfortable scenario. If I am bound my Father is not free. What I know is that I am here to live creatively, to enjoy life and to spread love. It is not my business to know what that looks like. It is my business to enjoy the ride. Over and over, I remind myself, “The correction of fear is your responsibility. When you ask for release from fear, you are implying that it is not. You should ask, instead, for help in the conditions that have brought the fear about. These conditions always entail a willingness to be separate. At that level you can help it. You are much too tolerant of mind wandering, and are passively condoning your mind’s miscreations.” From last year’s writing:
Because most of us identify with our bodies, think of ourselves as the limited form we are contained in on this earth plane, most of us do not think of ourselves as truly free. I am limited by my physical agility, my age, my sex, my finances, my geographic location, etc., etc. I don’t go around thinking that I have limited myself. That my thoughts are the source of my limitations. I literally feel limited by life. Yesterday was a perfect example of this since, after a super-busy Saturday, I had only so many hours to write on Sunday. I taught the kids yesterday, so I needed to prep for my lesson (we made mobiles, which means I had to learn how before church) and then I showed houses after church and didn’t get home from that until nearly 7:00 p.m. Part of that was a glitch that required me running back to the office to get my boss’s Supra (the little gizmo that gives us access to properties) because my phone, which doubles as my Supra, decided not to run that program. (Adding a “limited by technology” component!)
Even though I reviewed this lesson yesterday morning, I didn’t manage to remember it during the day. I was too busy pushing up against the constraints of my humanity. I was on the late-side publishing the prayer for the church website (and Sunday is the minister’s day, so she wasn’t thrilled to see my tardiness). I ended up snagging a quick lunch from Wendy’s because I didn’t have time to eat before going out to show houses. Yes, it was definitely a day where I felt very limited – limited by time, limited by energy (particularly by energy), limited by technology and the weather and, and, and.
Being human means bumping into limitations sometimes. Or at least that’s my belief.
Occasionally, I think of it in terms of vibration. Lower vibrations move more slowly. It’s harder to get from A to B. If I am aligned with fear/ego thought system, I am making it harder to move through time and space. Intellectually, I know this. Intellectually.
In practical terms, the thoughts that could help me overcome these limitations – love, Holy Spirit thought system, God – don’t always occur to me in that moment.
This is why it is a course in mind training. Today’s/yesterday’s/originally October 4th lesson is about recognizing that it can’t be the truth that I am limited – at least not by God (definitely by myself!) because then God would be limited. If I am as God created me, if I am God’s holy Son, then the truth of who I am cannot be my body, because that logically would mean that God isn’t omnipotent, for I am like Him. (“For your Father is your Creator, and you are like Him.”)
If I am bound, my Father is not free.
If I accept that I am prisoner within a body, in a world in which all things that seem to live appear to die, then is my Father prisoner with me. And this do I believe, when I maintain the laws the world obeys must I obey; the frailties and the sins which I perceive are real, and cannot be escaped. If I am bound in any way, I do not know my Father nor my Self. And I am lost to all reality. For truth is free, and what is bound is not a part of truth.
Father, I ask for nothing but the truth. I have had many foolish thoughts about myself and my creation, and have brought a dream of fear into my mind. Today, I would not dream. I choose the way to You instead of madness and instead of fear. For truth is safe, and only love is sure.
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So yesterday, I obviously failed to comprehend this lesson. I spent the day bumping into limitation. Yet, I recognize now that that doesn’t mean it wasn’t exactly as it should have been. How else to illustrate to me my own folly? Energy follows thought. I spent the day feeling taxed physically by time and energy. I’m repeating this again this morning today so, I apparently I still need to work on mastering the lesson.
“11 There is no one who does not feel that he is imprisoned in some way. If this is the result of his own free will he must regard his will as not free, or the circular reasoning in this position would be quite apparent. Free will must lead to freedom. Judgment always imprisons because it separates segments of reality by the unstable scales of desire. Wishes are not facts. To wish is to imply that willing is not sufficient. Yet no one in his right mind believes that what is wished is as real as what is willed. Instead of “Seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven” say, “Will ye first the Kingdom of Heaven,” and you have said, “I know what I am and I accept my own inheritance.””
I know what I am, but I confuse myself with this body. I think that I am my limitations. I think I am not free. I think that because I judge. I assess the situation and then layer it with the limitations that I believe in (I’m too poor to take a vacation. I’m too fat to wear a bikini. No one can run a mile in under four minutes) and call then I call those beliefs “the way things are.”
But who determined that? Who imposed the limitations? Was it form (being human) or was it me buying into conventional wisdom?
It’s hard to say. I’m making it up anyway. At the moment, it’s been yet another long day when I have had too much to do. I wanted to finish this writing this morning. Now it’s bedtime and I’m tired.
“Argue for your limitations and sure enough they are yours.” (Richard Bach)
“If I am bound, my Father is not free.” It’s something to think about.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.
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