Somehow, this remind from last year that “only perception can be sick” seems the perfect thing for the day. I feel like I am trying to settle my mind back into remembrance of the Divine, of the perfection that is always present but which I often fail to see. Yesterday, as I felt myself being irritated over several things, I knew I needed to heal my perception. So, I place my future in the hands of God. It was always there anyway. It’s time that I quit fighting that.
The more I study, the more I realize that my “problem” is perception, or rather misperception. My perceptions are wrong and the only solution is to “give it up to God.” Today’s lesson declares that I am placing my future in the hands of God; basically resolving to be present (and admitting that I do not know what anything is for). It is letting go of future-tripping. It’s recognizing that despite the fact that I worry about things sometimes, in truth there is only this moment and that in all actuality I can’t do anything in a moment that is not yet here. It is giving up the idea that I can control any of it, or more importantly that I want to control any of it: a pretty big undertaking. It’s amazingly simple and yet hard to do. It’s as easy as stopping to appreciate the Love that is already here. It’s as hard as trusting in that.
Ego wants to take the reins and shove God in the back seat. Not believe God has its best interests at heart, it wants to run the show and only hand over details to God when a miracle is needed. (The pray-in-a-pickle program where the modus operandi is promising to be good in exchange for mercy.) But part of the benefit of studying A Course in Miracles is that it is eminently practical. This “required course” is here to teach us (me) who we (I) am. It is a course in forgiveness because it is only through forgiveness that we (I) can find our (my) way out of the mess. As I read a couple of days ago in the review of Lesson 192, “ Forgiveness represents your function here. It is not God’s creation, for it is the means by which untruth can be undone. And who would pardon Heaven? Yet on earth, you need the means to let illusions go. Creation merely waits for your return to be acknowledged, not to be complete.”
Today, as “I place the future in the Hands of God,” I remember lesson 80 (shocking how many of these I rely on!): Let me recognize my problems have been solved. It is only my belief that there is a problem – my failure to recognize the perfection that is already here – that keeps me from wanting to place my future in God’s hands.
There really is only ONE problem – I think I am separate. As long as I believe that, then I am believing I am a body and I am believing I can be attacked and, and, and, etc., etc. The list goes on and on.
I am not a body. I am free.
For I am still as God created me.
(194) I place the future in the Hands of God.
The past is gone; the future is not yet. Now am I freed
from both. For what God gives can only be for good. And
I accept but what He gives as what belongs to me.
I am not a body. I am free.
For I am still as God created me.
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Last night, in our ACIM group, we discussed how sickness is an error in perception. We read, “When the ego tempts you to sickness do not ask the Holy Spirit to heal the body, for this would merely be to accept the ego’s belief that the body is the proper aim of healing. Ask, rather, that the Holy Spirit teach you the right perception of the body, for perception alone can be distorted. Only perception can be sick, because only perception can be wrong.”
As humans, we (I) try to heal the body. But belief in the body is belief in illusion; to search for healing “out there” is basically reinforcing the belief in separation. The solution could only be “out there” if the separation were real.
In the Manual for Teachers, the Course poses the question: HOW MANY TEACHERS OF GOD ARE NEEDED TO SAVE THE WORLD?
It then says, “The answer to this question is – one.”
Of course! If there is only One Son of God, if there is but one of us here, if there is no separation, then how, tell me how, could there be need of more than one???
In class, we laugh as we realize the folly of trying to fix anyone else. (“The sole responsibility of the miracle worker is to accept the atonement for himself.”) First, we judge another as being “less than” rather than seeing perfection and then we (I) are (am) arrogant enough to think that I know better than that person and that I need to “help” them to heal. This is obviously an ego projection because first, it sees another as separate, then sees them as defective and then sees itself as superior. Talk about a lovely ruse to keep me from working on my own stuff!
It was a mind-blowing evening.
Giving up on the idea that I (as in small self, the one who doesn’t know who she is, who thinks herself separate) am running the show, that I know anything, surrendering to God (which ego hates!) is the only way out of hell.
I place my future in the hands of God. To do that is to give up fighting reality. It is accepting all the wonder that God would have me experience. It allowing the removal of the barriers that keep love from me. But to do that, I have to be willing to let go of blaming anyone, making anyone (including myself!) wrong, I have to choose love over fear. I have to let go of the belief in sickness.
Sickness is an error in perception. It is believing the body informs the mind instead of seeing it as an indicator that the mind is failing to place its future in the hands of God. Sickness is a sign of a split mind – a mind that is listening to ego.
I am trying to wake up. This morning, it occurred to me that my misperceptions are keeping a lot of bad shit in place. I place my future in the hands of God and let go of thinking I have any job other than willingness. I surrender. I do want to wake up.
Even if it does scare the crap out of ego.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.
- Spiritual Prayer Journal (spiritcenteredawakenings.com)
- A course in miracles (journeysinwriting.com)
- The Backdoor Way Out (retireinstyleblog.com)
- Transformation (celiaelaine.wordpress.com)
- The Wizard of Oz (barrycosme.wordpress.com)
- “Silly Little Mind”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 14 (susanwithpearls.com)