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Lesson 210: Instead of Pain

Share the joy
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Sometimes the most interesting part of reading these posts is trying to recall what was going on a year ago. I remember that the stench was actually from a rotting pack rat under the couch. I’m only half-curtain who the jackass was. In any case, I am happy to be better at choosing joy instead of pain; happy to remember that it’s a more pleasant option than getting upset or pissed. From last year’s writing:

the strong do not attack

Do Not Attack

When life happens, it is good to be reminded to choose the joy of God instead of pain.  We have had issues with smells since we moved in and since I have a delicate sniffer, this has NOT been pleasant for me.  First it was the leak in the crawl space make the house smell old and moldy.  Then it was the septic system.  I’m not 100% sure it’s not still the septic system although Jay and I suspect we may have a propane leak.  I can no longer park my ass on the couch in the living room because, while I tried my best to disregard the stench yesterday, I ended up feeling sick.  We’ve shut off the propane and called the provider.

Sigh.

In such moments, it’s more challenging to choose the joy of God over pain.  My ideas of how things “should” be keep getting in the way.

Today’s lesson:

Lesson 210

I am not a body. I am free. 
For I am still as God created me.

(190) I choose the joy of God instead of pain.

Pain is my own idea. It is not a Thought of God, but one I 
thought apart from Him and from His Will. His Will is joy,
and only joy for His beloved Son. And that I choose, instead
of what I made.

I am not a body. I am free. 
For I am still as God created me.

 

 

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Beyond that, there is the feeling of being attacked by a person that I have a hard time seeing as anything but a jackass, and it brings out the worst in me.  I want to retaliate.  I want to think of ways to make him miserable.  I want to be my worst self.

Double sigh.

“The strong do not attack because they see no need to do so. Before the idea of attack can enter your mind, you must have perceived yourself as weak.”

Guilty as charged.  No wait, guilt is of the ego.  No more guilt, I choose innocence.

I am not a body. I am free.
For I am still as God created me.

It’s a reassuring thought, really: letting go of the need to retaliate, forgetting the impulse to defend.  Yet, reassuring as it is, there is something about being in a body that makes it NOT my first impulse.

Not to disillusion anyone, but those baser compulsions still seem to be encoded in my DNA.  Wish they weren’t but then why do I want to tear his fucking head off?

Just saying. Would the world really miss that asshole?

1 Do you not see the opposite of frailty and weakness is sinlessness? Innocence is strength, and nothing else is strong. The sinless cannot fear, for sin of any kind is weakness. The show of strength attack would use to cover frailty conceals it not, for how can the unreal be hidden? No one is strong who has an enemy, and no one can attack unless he thinks he has. Belief in enemies is therefore the belief in weakness, and what is weak is not the Will of God. Being opposed to it, it is God’s “enemy.” And God is feared as an opposing will.”

Shit.

Some days, I have to work at surrender.  Some days I have to return to the thought: be vigilant only for God and His Kingdom.

Right.  I am supposed to be doing that, aren’t I?

88 As long as you must be vigilant against anything, however, you are not recognizing this mutual exclusiveness and are holding the belief that you can choose either one. By teaching what to choose, the Holy Spirit will ultimately be able to teach you that you need not choose at all. This will finally liberate your will from choice and direct it towards creation within the Kingdom. Choosing through the Holy Spirit will lead you to the Kingdom.”

It is a fundamental error in thinking.  I know this. It’s like feeling hurt when someone insults you.  It the statement isn’t true, why are you upset?  It only makes sense to be upset if you believe it’s true.

It is why: In my defenselessness my safety lies.   We don’t treat errors as if they are real if we want to dismiss the bastards.

So, I choose the joy of God instead of pain.  It is a simple way of saying, I am siding with Truth.  It is a simple way of saying, I am choosing God/the Holy Spirit/Love over illusion.

Sometimes, I think of life as this video game and the way to win it is to keep from being sucked into illusion.  It all just is and mastering the game means recognizing that and not attaching meaning to things that will cost you a life.

Only the Love is real.

I hope to master it one day.  I hope to get better at choosing the joy of God instead of pain.

I turn toward the light (“for the little spark in you in part of a Light so great that it can sweep you out of all darkness forever.  For you Father is your Creator and you are like Him.”).

You win the game by remembering who you really are.

I’m still working on that.  How about you?

Namaste, my friends, Namaste.

 

 

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