From last year’s writing – the reminder that Heaven is a decision. We consciously choose to align with love (Heaven) or fear (hell) and life unfolds along the lines we have chosen.
It’s weird how much of life is about decisions. Those of us born under the sign of Gemini (or Libra, which is just as bad) can find this challenging. It’s not that we are necessarily indecisive, it’ s just that being fair-minded and able to see things from multiple perspective means that historically, for me anyway, I have not always seen things as cut and dry as I am beginning to. The Course makes it easier – is the choice love? Am I choosing Heaven or hell? Joy or suffering?? Being aware of such things matter because Heaven is a decision.
Well, when you put it that way….
The thing is that within duality, there appears to be more than one choice. It is a discussion we have frequently in our Tuesday night ACIM group, partly because one of the things I always say is “the game is rigged.” If the game is rigged, the house (God) always wins and there is nothing any of us can do to make the separation real. We can’t separate ourselves from God no matter how hard we try. Invariably, the objection that then naturally seems to bubble to the surface is: well, if the game is rigged, why play? What’s the point of trying if the results are out of our hands?
Seriously, dude? Did you want to go to hell? No worries, because if hell is your objective, you can have that right here, right now. All you have to do is choose fear over love; ego over the Holy Spirit.
It’s not carte blanche to do whatever the fuck we please, although if you want crappy experiences, if you want to suffer, God isn’t going to stop you. You get to do it however you want, but in the end, no matter how far you stray, you cannot be forsaken. Heaven is a decision that’s already been made for you. The illusion of duality cannot eclipse the wholeness of God.
In truth, there is just unity, just the one choice, which is why it doesn’t fluster God any. We can pretend within the illusion all we want but there is no way the stuff we make up will threaten the Truth of God in any way, shape or form.
Heaven is a decision.
Like all true decisions, it is the elimination of any other possibility. Perhaps it seems odd that a blog entitled Opening to the Possibility would tell you that Heaven is the decision to eliminate any other possibility but the paradox here is that by refusing to allow hell to come and play, by telling fear to go suck eggs, the possibilities become endless within the one choice.
But it’s still one choice. It is the choice for love. Not being right, or better than, or superior in any way shape or form, just love. This is where amazing stuff comes pouring into your life and blows your socks off with the beauty of it. This is where we let go of thinking that YOU (ME) need to control anything. Which can be scary stuff; so if Heaven is a fearless place than how the hell do we get there?
Surrender, my friends, surrender and trust that God’s got your back, but the Dude loves, loves, loves a good surprise so just don’t expect it to come in the package you’d imagined. Spirit is much more creative than that. Personally, I think He takes delight is demonstrating mind-blowing synchronicity that left to our own devices we could never in a million years manage to orchestrate.
Heaven is the decision I must make.
In this world Heaven is a choice, because here we believe there are alternatives to choose between. We think that all things have an opposite, and what we want we choose. If Heaven exists there must be hell as well, for contradiction is the way we make what we perceive, and what we think is real.
Creation knows no opposite. But here is opposition part of being “real.” It is this strange perception of the truth that makes the choice of Heaven seem to be the same as the relinquishment of hell. It is not really thus. Yet what is true in God’s creation cannot enter here until it is reflected in some form the world can understand. Truth cannot come where it could only be perceived with fear. For this would be the error truth can be brought to illusions. Opposition makes the truth unwelcome, and it cannot come.
Choice is the obvious escape from what appears as opposites. Decision lets one of conflicting goals become the aim of effort and expenditure of time. Without decision, time is but a waste and effort dissipated. It is spent for nothing in return, and time goes by without results. There is no sense of gain, for nothing is accomplished; nothing learned.
You need to be reminded that you think a thousand choices are confronting you, when there is really only one to make. And even this but seems to be a choice. Do not confuse yourself with all the doubts that myriad decisions would induce. You make but one. And when that one is made, you will perceive it was no choice at all. For truth is true, and nothing else is true. There is no opposite to choose instead. There is no contradiction to the truth.
Choosing depends on learning. And the truth cannot be learned, but only recognized. In recognition its acceptance lies, and as it is accepted it is known. But knowledge is beyond the goals we seek to teach within the framework of this course. Ours are teaching goals, to be attained through learning how to reach them, what they are, and what they offer you. Decisions are the outcome of your learning, for they rest on what you have accepted as the truth of what you are, and what your needs must be.
In this insanely complicated world, Heaven appears to take the form of choice, rather than merely being what it is. Of all the choices you have tried to make this is the simplest, most definitive and prototype of all the rest, the one which settles all decisions. If you could decide the rest, this one remains unsolved. But when you solve this one, the others are resolved with it, for all decisions but conceal this one by taking different forms. Here is the final and the only choice in which is truth accepted or denied.
So we begin today considering the choice that time was made to help us make. Such is its holy purpose, now transformed from the intent you gave it; that it be a means for demonstrating hell is real, hope changes to despair, and life itself must in the end be overcome by death. In death alone are opposites resolved, for ending opposition is to die. And thus salvation must be seen as death, for life is seen as conflict. To resolve the conflict is to end your life as well.
These mad beliefs can gain unconscious hold of great intensity, and grip the mind with terror and anxiety so strong that it will not relinquish its ideas about its own protection. It must be saved from salvation, threatened to be safe, and magically armored against truth. And these decisions are made unaware, to keep them safely undisturbed; apart from question and from reason and from doubt.
Heaven is chosen consciously. The choice cannot be made until alternatives are accurately seen and understood. All that is veiled in shadows must be raised to understanding, to be judged again, this time with Heaven’s help. And all mistakes in judgment that the mind had made before are open to correction, as the truth dismisses them as causeless. Now are they without effects. They cannot be concealed, because their nothingness is recognized.
The conscious choice of Heaven is as sure as is the ending of the fear of hell, when it is raised from its protective shield of unawareness, and is brought to light. Who can decide between the clearly seen and the unrecognized? Yet who can fail to make a choice between alternatives when only one is seen as valuable; the other as a wholly worthless thing, a but imagined source of guilt and pain? Who hesitates to make a choice like this? And shall we hesitate to choose today?
We make the choice for Heaven as we wake, and spend five minutes making sure that we have made the one decision that is sane. We recognize we make a conscious choice between what has existence and what has nothing but an appearance of the truth. Its pseudo-being, brought to what is real, is flimsy and transparent in the light. It holds no terror now, for what was made enormous, vengeful, pitiless with hate, demands obscurity for fear to be invested there. Now it is recognized as but a foolish, trivial mistake.
Before we close our eyes in sleep tonight, we reaffirm the choice that we have made each hour in between. And now we give the last five minutes of our waking day to the decision with which we awoke. As every hour passed, we have declared our choice again, in a brief quiet time devoted to maintaining sanity. And finally, we close the day with this, acknowledging we chose but what we want:
Heaven is the decision I must make.
I make it now, and will not change my mind,
because it is the only thing I want.
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Here’s the “interesting” part – the game is rigged so the decision for Heaven is really a decision between everything and nothing; between reality and illusion. As this lesson tells us, “And all mistakes in judgment that the mind had made before are open to correction, as the truth dismisses them as causeless. Now are they without effects. They cannot be concealed, because their nothingness is recognized.”
We are making it all up, all this stuff that we layer atop Heaven to turn it into our own private hell with our fears and doubts. “I just want to be safe,” the ego says. But here is the kicker – we were already safe until that is, we made up some monsters and let them in the house.
“But what if…” the ego whispers in a scared little girl voice.
I get it. Fear is knocking on the door and we feel as if the “logical” choice is to protect ourselves. Have a gun in the house. Take martial arts lessons. Be prepared. It never occurs to us that our statement about protection are invitations to the devil’s dance (so to speak). It never occurs to us that we made the thing we now have to protect ourselves against.
I get it. Here I am on the verge on making an offer on a house, that requires the proceeds from my upcoming closings to work, and suddenly I’m wondering how smart that is. Maybe I should wait – but what if someone else buys the house in the interim. Fear has wedged his nasty foot in the door and instead of feeling calm and certain, I’m feeling anxious.
I turn back to prayer. Heaven is a decision. It is a decision that I must choose consciously because there is still some part of my mind that forgets I am the one creating it; that forgets that when I encounter troubles it is surely because somewhere along the way, I borrowed it by thinking there was another choice.
I take a deep breath and return to the Holy Spirit. I enter prayer. I rest in God. “Do not confuse yourself with all the doubts that myriad decisions would induce. You make but one. And when that one is made, you will perceive it was no choice at all. For truth is true, and nothing else is true. There is no opposite to choose instead. There is no contradiction to the truth.”
Heaven is my decision. I choose it. Consciously. Because I cannot afford to allow my mind to be poisoned with doubts and fears. I will not return to hell.
Heaven is the decision I must make. The game is rigged. So there!
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.