Opening to the Possibility

What Would You Do If You Knew You Couldn't Fail?

Lesson 134: Forgiveness as It Is

Share the joy
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  

Form last year’s writing: Let me perceive forgiveness as it is – the letting go of illusion. There is no need to pardon truth.

Forgiveness as it is

Forgiveness as it is

I am behind today.  I’m not complaining: I am giving myself room to be behind and allow it to be perfectly perfect.  Life has been a tailspin lately and after all my flurry of activity, I needed a two-hour nap just to catch up on the lack of sleep and restore myself to wholeness.  But it’s fine; it’s all fine.  It is fine because forgiveness is the flavor of the day and I am happy to allow it to be.

So here is why I love this A Course in Miracles lesson: “Pardon is not asked for what is true. It must be limited to what is false. It is irrelevant to everything except illusions.”  It is why God does not forgive (for He never did condemn) because He was never suckered into trying to twist illusions into truth.

See, part of what I love about the Course is that all problems stem from thinking we are something we are not.  They are all by-products of guilt which is an ego construct.  When I fall into the arms of innocence, knowing I am not what my ego would have me believe I am, then I weep in gladness.  I weep to know how loved I am despite my false ideas of fucked-up-ed-ness. You see, my ego would have me believe that I am this fucked-up mess (as witnessed by the fact that I have the audacity to swear in a blog devoted to God!).  My ego would condemn me to guilt, tell me I am only worthy of being punished like some evil demon and strip me of the ability to atone.  My ego would not allow escape.

But here within the confines of studying these lessons, innocence takes me home.  I know I am a good person, and it is only any doubts that I have entertained about that that have kept me from behaving as if it were true.

Let me perceive forgiveness as it is.

You know, I don’t know what it is like for other people but for myself the idea of sinlessness or innocence is magnificent.  It feels like a huge weight has been lifted because it allows me to let go of making myself wrong or guilty or bad.  It provides a space where my best self can step up to the plate and shine.  In any given moment, I know that when I am avoiding doing something I “should” and I feel guilty about it, that is simply my inner guidance leading me back home.

Just do it.

Don’t provide a space for ego to hook you and act as if illusion were truth, but do what you feel you should be doing.

In class last Tuesday, Heaven was painted as the exit ramp from the insane race track we tear through, round and around in circles.  We race through it and notice the exit, but continue to go around and around, compulsively circling through the same old stuff.  Sometimes, we notice the exit and get off, but then habit snagged us and there we are circling again.  The solution is forgiveness.

“Truth is God’s creation, and to pardon that is meaningless. All truth belongs to Him, reflects His laws and radiates His Love. Does this need pardon? How can you forgive the sinless and eternally benign?

The major difficulty that you find in genuine forgiveness on your part is that you still believe you must forgive the truth, and not illusions.” 

Forgiveness is the awareness that what you thought happened never did.  This is a statement that infuriates the ego.  “What about that car accident?!?” it demands.  “How can you say it never happened when it left me paralyzed and killed by friend?!?”

Thus the demand for payment for the sins is made.

“Because you think your sins are real, you look on pardon as deception. For it is impossible to think of sin as true and not believe forgiveness is a lie. Thus is forgiveness really but a sin, like all the rest. It says the truth is false, and smiles on the corrupt as if they were as blameless as the grass; as white as snow. It is delusional in what it thinks it can accomplish. It would see as right the plainly wrong; the loathsome as the good.”

The Course gently leads us back to sinlessness.  “Forgiveness is the only thing that stands for truth in the illusions of the world. It sees their nothingness, and looks straight through the thousand forms in which they may appear. It looks on lies, but it is not deceived.”

I look at it as a way of pulling us deeper into love.  When we realize our worth is so much greater than we’ve given ourselves credit for, when we realize that our “sins” cannot change the truth of who and what we are, then a huge weight is lifted.  Humanity blooms forth in all its messiness and we recognize that within the illusion, yes, these events happened, but they cannot make death real, they cannot change the changelessness of God, who loves us so deeply that He’s rigged the game.  We cannot make the separation real.  That which is whole can not allow parts to go missing in the name of guilt and sin, which are illusions created by the ego.

But I’ve stolen enough tidbits, here’s today’s lesson in its entirety.

Lesson 134

Let me perceive forgiveness as it is.

Let us review the meaning of “forgive,” for it is apt to be distorted and to be perceived as something that entails an unfair sacrifice of righteous wrath, a gift unjustified and undeserved, and a complete denial of the truth. In such a view, forgiveness must be seen as mere eccentric folly, and this course appear to rest salvation on a whim.

This twisted view of what forgiveness means is easily corrected, when you can accept the fact that pardon is not asked for what is true. It must be limited to what is false. It is irrelevant to everything except illusions. Truth is God’s creation, and to pardon that is meaningless. All truth belongs to Him, reflects His laws and radiates His Love. Does this need pardon? How can you forgive the sinless and eternally benign?

The major difficulty that you find in genuine forgiveness on your part is that you still believe you must forgive the truth, and not illusions. You conceive of pardon as a vain attempt to look past what is there; to overlook the truth, in an unfounded effort to deceive yourself by making an illusion true. This twisted viewpoint but reflects the hold that the idea of sin retains as yet upon your mind, as you regard yourself.

Because you think your sins are real, you look on pardon as deception. For it is impossible to think of sin as true and not believe forgiveness is a lie. Thus is forgiveness really but a sin, like all the rest. It says the truth is false, and smiles on the corrupt as if they were as blameless as the grass; as white as snow. It is delusional in what it thinks it can accomplish. It would see as right the plainly wrong; the loathsome as the good.

Pardon is no escape in such a view. It merely is a further sign that sin is unforgivable, at best to be concealed, denied or called another name, for pardon is a treachery to truth. Guilt cannot be forgiven. If you sin, your guilt is everlasting. Those who are forgiven from the view their sins are real are pitifully mocked and twice condemned; first, by themselves for what they think they did, and once again by those who pardon them.

It is sin’s unreality that makes forgiveness natural and wholly sane, a deep relief to those who offer it; a quiet blessing where it is received. It does not countenance illusions, but collects them lightly, with a little laugh, and gently lays them at the feet of truth. And there they disappear entirely.

Forgiveness is the only thing that stands for truth in the illusions of the world. It sees their nothingness, and looks straight through the thousand forms in which they may appear. It looks on lies, but it is not deceived. It does not heed the self-accusing shrieks of sinners mad with guilt. It looks on them with quiet eyes, and merely says to them, “My brother, what you think is not the truth.”

The strength of pardon is its honesty, which is so uncorrupted that it sees illusions as illusions, not as truth. It is because of this that it becomes the undeceiver in the face of lies; the great restorer of the simple truth. By its ability to overlook what is not there, it opens up the way to truth, which has been blocked by dreams of guilt. Now are you free to follow in the way your true forgiveness opens up to you. For if one brother has received this gift of you, the door is open to yourself.

There is a very simple way to find the door to true forgiveness, and perceive it open wide in welcome. When you feel that you are tempted to accuse someone of sin in any form, do not allow your mind to dwell on what you think he did, for that is self-deception. Ask instead, “Would I accuse myself of doing this?”

Thus will you see alternatives for choice in terms that render choosing meaningful, and keep your mind as free of guilt and pain as God Himself intended it to be, and as it is in truth. It is but lies that would condemn. In truth is innocence the only thing there is. Forgiveness stands between illusions and the truth; between the world you see and that which lies beyond; between the hell of guilt and Heaven’s gate.

Across this bridge, as powerful as love which laid its blessing on it, are all dreams of evil and of hatred and attack brought silently to truth. They are not kept to swell and bluster, and to terrify the foolish dreamer who believes in them. He has been gently wakened from his dream by understanding what he thought he saw was never there. And now he cannot feel that all escape has been denied to him.

He does not have to fight to save himself. He does not have to kill the dragons which he thought pursued him. Nor need he erect the heavy walls of stone and iron doors he thought would make him safe. He can remove the ponderous and useless armor made to chain his mind to fear and misery. His step is light, and as he lifts his foot to stride ahead a star is left behind, to point the way to those who follow him.

Forgiveness must be practiced, for the world cannot perceive its meaning, nor provide a guide to teach you its beneficence. There is no thought in all the world that leads to any understanding of the laws it follows, nor the Thought that it reflects. It is as alien to the world as is your own reality. And yet it joins your mind with the reality in you.

Today we practice true forgiveness, that the time of joining be no more delayed. For we would meet with our reality in freedom and in peace. Our practicing becomes the footsteps lighting up the way for all our brothers, who will follow us to the reality we share with them. That this may be accomplished, let us give a quarter of an hour twice today, and spend it with the Guide Who understands the meaning of forgiveness, and was sent to us to teach it. Let us ask of Him:

Let me perceive forgiveness as it is.

Then choose one brother as He will direct, and catalogue his “sins,” as one by one they cross your mind. Be certain not to dwell on any one of them, but realize that you are using his “offenses” but to save the world from all ideas of sin. Briefly consider all the evil things you thought of him, and each time ask yourself, “Would I condemn myself for doing this?”

Let him be freed from all the thoughts you had of sin in him. And now you are prepared for freedom. If you have been practicing thus far in willingness and honesty, you will begin to sense a lifting up, a lightening of weight across your chest, a deep and certain feeling of relief. The time remaining should be given to experiencing the escape from all the heavy chains you sought to lay upon your brother, but were laid upon yourself.

Forgiveness should be practiced through the day, for there will still be many times when you forget its meaning and attack yourself. When this occurs, allow your mind to see through this illusion as you tell yourself:

Let me perceive forgiveness as it is. 
Would I accuse myself of doing this?
I will not lay this chain upon myself.

In everything you do remember this:

No one is crucified alone, and yet no one 
can enter Heaven by himself.

© Foundation for Inner Peace • PO Box 598 • Mill Valley, CA  94942-0598

The ego’s argument is that sinlessness is carte blanche for people to behave badly, without accountability.  It “smiles on the corrupt as if they were as blameless as the grass; as white as snow. It is delusional in what it thinks it can accomplish. It would see as right the plainly wrong; the loathsome as the good.”

That is the ego’s argument, and it is a trap.  It is a trap that is meant to perpetuate guilt and sin.  A hook it uses to get us back on the racetrack and going around in circles with no hope for escape.  The Course offers escape asking us to think about a brother and all the wicked things we think he did. “Briefly consider all the evil things you thought of him, and each time ask yourself, ‘Would I condemn myself for doing this?’”

We see the world not as it is but as we are.

Namaste, my friends, Namaste.

 

Likes(0)Dislikes(0)

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Opening to the Possibility © 2016 Frontier Theme