I listen to A Course in Miracles while driving, ad after months of hearing the same CDs over and over, I finally changed a couple of them over and today, while driving, I heard. “The goal of the curriculum, regardless of the teacher you choose, is “Know thyself.” There is nothing else to seek.” That’s the goal to know who and what we are. We are the ONE Son of God, which means that all the “separate” people are part of that oneness and therefore part of the solution.
You may recall, that we have but one problem and that is that we think we are separate. “The problem of separation, which is really the only problem, has already been solved. Yet the solution is not recognized because the problem is not recognized.” Ego thinks us and them. Ego doesn’t get it.
“ Everyone is looking for himself and for the power and glory he thinks he has lost. Whenever you are with anyone, you have another opportunity to find them. Your power and glory are in him because they are yours. The ego tries to find them in yourself alone, because it does not know where to look. The Holy Spirit teaches you that if you look only at yourself you cannot find yourself, because that is not what you are.“
We are found in each other. We find ourselves by giving ourselves away to one another. Not in sacrifice, but in sharing. “Whenever you are with a brother, you are learning what you are because you are teaching what you are. He will respond either with pain or with joy, depending on which teacher you are following. He will be imprisoned or released according to your decision, and so will you. Never forget your responsibility to him, because it is your responsibility to yourself. Give him his place in the Kingdom and you will have yours.”
We find ourselves through love.
Today, my husband was pissy. He had allowed his iPhone to do an automatic update and since apparently he doesn’t know the email account associated with his Apple account, he has been locked out of his phone all day.
Not a happy camper.
He was frustrated. He was irritable. I was absent a good part of the day and therefore oblivious to why I’d come home to was such a piss monkey until I realized he was still phoneless. At one point, I tried to help him break into my old Apple account because we thought his phone was perhaps connected to it (I no longer have an iPhone, so I wasn’t suffering from update hangover) but to no avail. After resetting the passwords and hacking into my old Apple account, he still wasn’t making progress, but we were laughing. I know how to dance with the man. I know how to make him laugh. I know how to teach him who I am and therefore who he is. He was still frustrated, but when I point out to him that it could be worse, we could be fighting instead of laughing, I could feel him shift into gratitude.
Because it is good to have a partner you can count on to see past your pissiness. It’s good to have someone you and laugh and joke with. There I was, reading off the authentication code from the text on my phone so he could hack into my account and he was having a hard time understanding me (being frustrated damages your hearing). “U,” I said. He understood that one. “D,” I said. “V?” he asked. No, “’D as in dog,” I answered. I did that slowly with each letter until I got to the “F.” “F as in Frank, or as in ‘fuck you’ if that makes you happier.” He immediately started laughing. “Yeah, I think it may be the latter at this point.”
The phone is still locked. We are waiting for Apple to call back after he had to scan our receipt from the phone purchase (thank God he had that!) so that they can get it reset. It’s awesome that Apple is taking measures to prevent iJacking. It’s definitely harder for a thief just steal your phone and use it but frustrating to have to deal with all the security.
But I’m happy. I’m happy to know that I’m better now at teaching who I am. I don’t have to change him when he is frustrated and pissy, I just have to teach love. I just have to stand fast in the knowledge of who I am and therefore who he is.
“7 You can encounter only part of yourself because you are part of God, Who is everything. His power and glory are everywhere, and you cannot be excluded from them. The ego teaches that your strength is in you alone. The Holy Spirit teaches that all strength is in God and therefore in you. God wills no one suffer. He does not will anyone to suffer for a wrong decision, including you. That is why He has given you the means for undoing it. Through His power and glory all your wrong decisions are undone completely, releasing you and your brother from every imprisoning thought any part of the Sonship holds. Wrong decisions have no power, because they are not true. The imprisonment they seem to produce is no more true than they are.
8 Power and glory belong to God alone. So do you. God gives whatever belongs to Him because He gives of Himself, and everything belongs to Him. Giving of yourself is the function He gave you. Fulfilling it perfectly will let you remember what you have of Him, and by this you will remember also what you are in Him. You cannot be powerless to do this, because this is your power. Glory is God’s gift to you, because that is what He is. See this glory everywhere to remember what you are.”
What I teach, I learn. It is, in fact, the only way to learn it.
“5 When a brother behaves insanely, you can heal him only by perceiving the sanity in him. If you perceive his errors and accept them, you are accepting yours. If you want to give yours over to the Holy Spirit, you must do this with his. Unless this becomes the one way in which you handle all errors, you cannot understand how all errors are undone. How is this different from telling you that what you teach you learn? Your brother is as right as you are, and if you think he is wrong you are condemning yourself.”
It felt good to know that I don’t need to fix anything in anybody. I just need to teach love. I just need to teach who I am so that finally, I can learn it and know that God wills only happiness for me.
And I don’t need to change anyone to find it. I only need to know who I am and share that knowingness.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.