Lesson 34: I Could See Peace Instead of This and Some Tuesday Night ACIM Group

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I could See Peace Instead

I could See Peace Instead

It’s a mantra I have been using for years in stressful situations: I could see peace instead of this.  It is what I repeated when we lost our business years ago.  It was what I said when I had an employee (who had an addiction to pain-killers) tried to extort money from our old company when an injury exposed his problem.  It was my mantra when a former client decided she was no longer interested in the house she was buying cash and fired me when she walked away from the deal (only to buy another house I had shown her).  I could see peace instead of this.  The phrase has lifted me out of more than one situation where I wanted desperately to feel sorry for myself and brand myself a victim.

I am not a victim.  I chose healing.  I chose forgiveness.  I chose to believe, God is always present.  The Universe is conspiring in my favor.

Lesson 34

I could see peace instead of this.

The idea for today begins to describe the conditions that prevail in the other way of seeing. Peace of mind is clearly an internal matter. It must begin with your own thoughts, and then extend outward. It is from your peace of mind that a peaceful perception of the world arises.

Three longer practice periods are required for today’s exercises. One in the morning and one in the evening are advised, with an additional one to be undertaken at any time in between that seems most conducive to readiness. All applications should be done with your eyes closed. It is your inner world to which the applications of today’s idea should be made.

Some five minutes of mind searching are required for each of the longer practice periods. Search your mind for fear thoughts, anxiety-provoking situations, “offending” personalities or events, or anything else about which you are harboring unloving thoughts. Note them all casually, repeating the idea for today slowly as you watch them arise in your mind, and let each one go, to be replaced by the next.

If you begin to experience difficulty in thinking of specific subjects, continue to repeat the idea to yourself in an unhurried manner, without applying it to anything in particular. Be sure, however, not to make any specific exclusions.

The shorter applications are to be frequent, and made whenever you feel your peace of mind is threatened in any way. The purpose is to protect yourself from temptation throughout the day. If a specific form of temptation arises in your awareness, the exercise should take this form:

I could see peace in this situation instead of what I now see in it.

If the inroads on your peace of mind take the form of more generalized adverse emotions, such as depression, anxiety or worry, use the idea in its original form. If you find you need more than one application of today’s idea to help you change your mind in any specific context, try to take several minutes and devote them to repeating the idea until you feel some sense of relief. It will help you if you tell yourself specifically:

I can replace my feelings of depression, anxiety or worry [or my thoughts about this situation, personality or event] with peace.

This is one of my favorite lessons: a reminder that I have the ability to restore my peace of mind.  I have used it often enough to know it works, but it has always been in extreme situations.  It has always been to soothe myself out of rage and wash away the impulse to cling to my desire for things to be different.

Last night in our Course in Miracles group, we talked about flow.  We discussed the ease that arises out of choosing love, of surrendering, of going with the flow of what is happening and trusting that what is happening is an opportunity for love.  The moment we enter fear, it’s like throwing huge branches into this flowing river to try and stop the current.  It doesn’t make the ride through the rough waters easier.  It doesn’t feel better.  It doesn’t even afford us the opportunity to get out of the boat and abandon the current: that’s not possible. It just makes the ride less pleasant.

Here was the part I loved.  To paraphrase Tim: it’s not possible to stop the flow.  We have this power that we are constantly using because that’s how it works.  We can’t not use it.  So we can use it to express love and have a great life or we can miscreate by expressing fear and get all this shit we hate, but we can’t stop creating.  We can only change filters of how we are seeing it.

The Universe is conspiring in our favor.  Everything is an opportunity for love.

I could see peace instead of this.

When we lost the business: I had to own that I really didn’t want to do it anymore.  That is was good for our kids to figure out how to stand on their own two feet rather than depending on us to thrive.  That the pain-killer addicted employee needed to get clean and that I was strong enough to still be standing after the dust settled.  I ran into him a couple years after the fact: he apologizes and thanked me.  It was a miracle moment.  It was birthed from love.

One of the hardest things about being a Realtor is that I have had to learn not to be attached.  I have had to teach love in situations where I want to be hurt and angry.  I don’t know why I have had the opportunity to go down that road so often, but I know I can’t and won’t allow myself to be crippled by it.   It’s not a job for sissies.

(Having said that – I am ready to receive, Lord.  I deserve to be compensated for my work.)

I could see peace instead of this.  It feels vulnerability to let go of the hurt.  It feels vulnerable to let go of anger.  It feels vulnerable to be unattached and fine with being an instrument of love despite the ego’s claims of iniquity.

I could see peace instead of this.

We are swimming in God.  It is why gratitude and appreciation are such powerful tools because they lift us out of resisting what is to going with the flow.  It requires trust.  It requires letting go of trying to control the uncontrollable.

Here’s the joke: it’s already all working in your favor.  Everything that is happening is already for my benefit.  Opposing it is just creating hell.  Fighting it is being blind to the beauty that is already there.  My mistrust and lack of ability to appreciate the gift right in front of me does not eradicate them; it just stands in the way of me being able to appreciate them.

The sole responsibility of the miracle worker is to accept the Atonement for himself.    (That’s where we were last night, The Function of the Miracles Worker.) It is a phrase repeated frequently in the Course, but what does it mean?

I think it means accepting your own power, your connection to God and to everyone else.  My only responsibility is to accept this about myself.  I don’t get to choose anyone else’s path for them.  It is my responsibility to see others as the divine expressions that they are, to look past the errors, to see that they too are God expressing, and to know that truth for them, while not trying to determine their path for them.   

My responsibility is to allow the power that is already flowing through me to be directed for good, to be an expression of love; to trust that when I don’t know what to do, God does, so all I need to do is to ask the Holy Spirit.

Surrender.

I could see peace instead of this.  I think I will make this mantra my constant companion.  In every situation where I feel attachment to how I think things should unfold, I can reach into my pocket and pull out: I could see peace instead of this.

It’s a statement of trust.  It is an acknowledgment that God knows that God is doing, that I am never being punished, though I may be being corrected.  I am being guided towards love.  Constantly.  And it feels so much better than fear.

I could see peace instead of this.

Let it in, baby, let it flow.

Namaste, my friends, Namaste.

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