Part of the point of today’s lesson is that the game is rigged and therefore you can’t screw it up. This is what I love about A Course in Miracles – the inevitability of knowing that despite my stubborn ways, there is no way that I can refuse to accept what God has willed for me. “…what God wills for Himself He wills for you, and what He wills for you is yours.”
God is my strength.
I was raised in a Christian faith that frightened me as a child. I needed to constantly beg for forgiveness because if my soul wasn’t “clean” when the rapture occurred, I’d be left behind. (I’m not saying all Christians believe this, only that this is what our Bible school teacher was saying.) I used to worry – what if it occurred during a time when I had inadvertently forgotten to ask for forgiveness? Would I be left behind? My only consolation was that I was relatively sure my parents and siblings weren’t being good enough Christians to stay on top of the begging for forgiven thing and so at least I wouldn’t be alone.
Sigh. This is the kind of fear that some faiths use to manipulate their masses.
I once had a deep discussion with a Catholic friend of mine and she believed about 90% of what I believe, but she couldn’t get past the not going to hell thing. For her, anyone who hadn’t asked Jesus to save them was doomed and she wasn’t convinced that my childhood efforts were going to be adequate to keep me from hell. She was astounded that I wasn’t worried about it. I felt bad for her that she did.
I don’t want to go through life worried that I am not good enough for God to want to keep me!
Fortunately, the Course teaches a kinder, gentler way: a way that leaves fear behind and cocoons us in love.
The game is rigged. What God wants, God gets, and our attempts to separate ourselves from our Father can never make that separation real. “God is lonely without His Sons,” so, yeah, that separation thing isn’t real and we can pretend all we want but we can’t make it so.
None of us are getting left behind. And if we aren’t “good” people, well that just makes the lessons last longer but we don’t get to hang up our hats and abdicate our roles.
Today’s lesson is about knowing that we can rely on God and that sooner or later we will see. Vision is His gift, and this is “a required course.”
God is my strength. Vision is His gift.
The idea for today combines two very powerful thoughts, both of major importance. It also sets forth a cause and effect relationship that explains why you cannot fail in your efforts to achieve the goal of the course. You will see because it is the Will of God. It is His strength, not your own, that gives you power. And it is His gift, rather than your own, that offers vision to you.
God is indeed your strength, and what He gives is truly given. This means that you can receive it any time and anywhere, wherever you are, and in whatever circumstance you find yourself. Your passage through time and space is not at random. You cannot but be in the right place at the right time. Such is the strength of God. Such are His gifts.
We will have two three-to-five-minute practice periods today, one as soon as possible after you wake, and another as close as possible to the time you go to sleep. It is better, however, to wait until you can sit quietly by yourself, at a time when you feel ready, than it is to be concerned with the time as such.
Begin these practice periods by repeating the idea for today slowly, with your eyes open, looking about you. Then close your eyes and repeat the idea again, even slower than before. After this, try to think of nothing except thoughts that occur to you in relation to the idea for the day. You might think, for example:
Vision must be possible. God gives truly,
God’s gifts to me must be mine, because He gave them to me.
Any thought that is clearly related to the idea for today is suitable. You may, in fact, be astonished at the amount of course-related understanding some of your thoughts contain. Let them come without censoring unless you find your mind is merely wandering, and you have let obviously irrelevant thoughts intrude. You may also reach a point where no thoughts at all seem to come to mind. If such interferences occur, open your eyes and repeat the thought once more while looking slowly about; close your eyes, repeat the idea once more, and then continue to look for related thoughts in your mind.
Remember, however, that active searching for relevant thoughts is not appropriate for today’s exercises. Try merely to step back and let the thoughts come. If you find this difficult, it is better to spend the practice period alternating between slow repetitions of the idea with eyes open, then with eyes closed, than it is to strain to find suitable thoughts.
There is no limit on the number of short practice periods that would be beneficial today. The idea for the day is a beginning step in bringing thoughts together, and teaching you that you are studying a unified thought system in which nothing is lacking that is needed, and nothing is included that is contradictory or irrelevant.
The more often you repeat the idea during the day, the more often you will be reminding yourself that the goal of the course is important to you, and that you have not forgotten it.
I’ve studied the Course long enough to be able to silence the ego doubts that scream, “You’re never going to get there, bitch. Just because God’s gift is Vision doesn’t mean you are talented enough to ever get there!” That’s where my ego goes – to doubt. So it is comforting to me to know the game is rigged. It is comforting to me to be reminded that while I am capable of delaying things through my stubborn (not affirming!) ways, I am not big and strong enough to be more powerful than God. So if He says I will see, then I know I will.
Last night, I got up to pee in the middle of the night, and there was a flash that I saw for just a moment. I have no idea what it was, but all I could think was “this is the beginning of Vision.” (It wasn’t outside or near any light source in the darkness – it almost looked like a portal of sorts.)
God is my strength. Vision is His Gift. If God says I will see, I will.
It’s a relief actually. Lately, I am all about going with the flow. Asking what I should be doing and doing that. Hell, it’s a lot easier and I just can’t put energy into opposing God.
Because I can’t stop the flow. I can’t stop creating and since the Holy Spirit is going to take everything and use is as a learning device to get to where I need to be going, I might as well surrender. I might as well choose love. I might as well experience Heaven now instead of hell.
Yes, I am starting to get worn down. It’s about time I stopped making myself miserable for no good reason. God is my strength. I’m only creating courtesy of Him. His power is my power. ( “It also sets forth a cause and effect relationship that explains why you cannot fail in your efforts to achieve the goal of the course. You will see because it is the Will of God. It is His strength, not your own, that gives you power. “) I will see, because God wills it. (It’s a required course.)
O my child, if you knew what God wills for you, your joy would be complete! And what He wills has happened, for it was always true. When the light comes and you have said, “God’s Will is mine,” you will see such beauty that you will know it is not of you. Out of your joy you will create beauty in His Name, for your joy could no more be contained than His. The bleak little world will vanish into nothingness, and your heart will be so filled with joy that it will leap into Heaven, and into the Presence of God. I cannot tell you what this will be like, for your heart is not ready. Yet I can tell you, and remind you often, that what God wills for Himself He wills for you, and what He wills for you is yours.
God’s will is mine. I am meant to be happy. I am meant to create beauty. I can make mistakes, but I cannot “sin.” (“6Son of God, you have not sinned, but you have been much mistaken.”) Those mistakes can keep me from experiencing my birthright of peace and joy, but peace and joy and still available to me.
Choose again. (Lesson 34: “I could see peace instead of this.”)
How wonderful it is to know that I can’t be left behind. I can’t make so many mistakes that God gives up on me. This is how the game is rigged and I for one love that it is.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.