Do you believe that God always answers your prayers? Not always? Sometimes? If you’ve been good enough? Pray hard enough? Strike the right bargain? As a former pro at doubting my prayers could be answered, I understand all the pitfalls. I know that when you just can’t see how something could possibly happen, it’s hard to have faith that your prayers will be answered. You want to hedge your bets, in case God doesn’t come through. I mean, that’s what I always did – I acted like God was this unreliable deadbeat dad who couldn’t be counted on to pick me up when he said he was going to.
God was never the problem. I was. I know that now. I didn’t know it back in the day. I used to pray over and over, begging God to love me enough to give me what I wanted. I had to beg because it was the only way I thought I’d get what I wanted (think persistent kid hoping to wear down the parental unit).
I bring this up, in part, because I have a friend who has a dear friend whose husband is dying. At least that is the appearance. I personally don’t believe it. I know the husband isn’t sick. I know he doesn’t have cancer. I know that. I know the illness is an illusion and that at the moment he is experiencing the effects of that illusion My prayer for him is that he accept the healing found in the prayers going up for him, because it’s hard to overcome the belief that one is dying. There is no order of difficulty in miracles and I know that for whatever reason, this man is convinced he is dying.
I’m not blaming him. I’m sure he has no clue. “9 It is still up to you to choose to join with truth or with illusion. But remember that to choose one is to let the other go. Which one you choose you will endow with beauty and reality, because the choice depends on which you value more. The spark of beauty or the veil of ugliness, the real world or the world of guilt and fear, truth or illusion, freedom or slavery -it is all the same. For you can never choose except between God and the ego. Thought systems are but true or false, and all their attributes come simply from what they are. Only the Thoughts of God are true. And all that follows from them comes from what they are, and is as true as is the holy Source from Which they came.”
We are making it up. We decide each day what reality we want to live. He literally has to wake up each morning with the memory that he is dying and choose to believe that it is true. He could deny it instead but I’m sure that idea is foreign to him. The answer is forgiveness. “1 To forgive is merely to remember only the loving thoughts you gave in the past, and those that were given you. All the rest must be forgotten.”
“8 The past becomes the justification for entering into a continuing, unholy alliance with the ego against the present. For the present is forgiveness. Therefore, the relationships the unholy alliance dictates are not perceived nor felt as now. Yet the frame of reference to which the present is referred for meaning is an illusion of the past, in which those elements that fit the purpose of the unholy alliance are retained, and all the rest let go. And what is thus let go is all the truth the past could ever offer to the present as witnesses for its reality. What is kept but witnesses to the reality of dreams.”
I don’t know this man. I don’t know this family. I know my friend believe that the guy is dying. I get it. I had another friend who died of cancer a few years back and her terror was palpable. She didn’t want to die. And she was a woman of faith so it was hard on her because she believed her prayers weren’t being answered.
Except they were. She had a husband with a progressive illness that she really didn’t want to stick around to deal with in the final stages. Did she consciously choose to die rather than deal with her husband? Of course not. But this is why we much be willing to be radically honest with ourselves when we sit down with our fears. The mind will use the body as a problem-solving device. I don’t know this man, but I know that somehow or another he is using the body to solve a problem. Somehow or another he is afraid.
The Manual for Teachers says, “1 Healing must occur in exact proportion to which the valuelessness of sickness is recognized. One need but say, “There is no gain at all to me in this” and he is healed. But to say this, one first must recognize certain facts. First, it is obvious that decisions are of the mind, not of the body. If sickness is but a faulty problem-solving approach, it is a decision. And if it is a decision, it is the mind and not the body that makes it. The resistance to recognizing this is enormous, because the existence of the world as you perceive it depends on the body being the decision-maker. Terms like “instincts,” “reflexes” and the like represent attempts to endow the body with non-mental motivators. Actually, such terms merely state or describe the problem. They do not answer it.”
“There is no gain at all to me in this.”
Most of us don’t believe that. We don’t believe that someone can spontaneously be healed of cancer, even though it happens all the time. Most of us are scared shitless to even think we have that kind of power.
In class last night, life contracts were brought up again. Do I think that before we get here that we decide we will play a certain role? Have certain experiences? Yes and no. Partly because I believe in alternate realities (parallel universes). Back to Schrodinger’s cat – the cat is both dead and alive. So while it could be true that there is a life contract, that doesn’t mean it can’t change. Illusions change. Only the love is real, so that part doesn’t.
The Manual for Teachers says, “1 Certain pupils have been assigned to each of God’s teachers, and they will begin to look for him as soon as he has answered the Call. They were chosen for him because the form of the universal curriculum that he will teach is best for them in view of their level of understanding. His pupils have been waiting for him, for his coming is certain. Again, it is only a matter of time. Once he has chosen to fulfill his role, they are ready to fulfill theirs. Time waits on his choice, but not on whom he will serve. When he is ready to learn, the opportunities to teach will be provided for him.”
I don’t know that it’s healthy/helpful to be fatalistic about one’s role. Of course, I also don’t know what anything is for, but I do know that the man is in illusion, stuck in the belief that he is dying. All prayers are answered. Can you receive it? Do you believe it’s possible?
I loved studying Emma Curtis Hopkins because she was so clear that sickness does not exist. She denied it and thus the appearance of healing occurred. In reality, it was just stepping out of the illusion and reclaiming the truth.
All prayers are answered. “3 The Bible emphasizes that all prayer is answered, and this is indeed true. The very fact that the Holy Spirit has been asked for anything will ensure a response. Yet it is equally certain that no response given by Him will ever be one that would increase fear. It is possible that His answer will not be heard. It is impossible, however, that it will be lost. There are many answers you have already received but have not yet heard. I assure you that they are waiting for you.
4 If you would know your prayers are answered, never doubt a Son of God. Do not question him and do not confound him, for your faith in him is your faith in yourself. If you would know God and His Answer, believe in me whose faith in you cannot be shaken. Can you ask of the Holy Spirit truly, and doubt your brother? Believe his words are true because of the truth that is in him. You will unite with the truth in him, and his words will be true. As you hear him you will hear me. Listening to truth is the only way you can hear it now, and finally know it.”
Years ago, I attended a workshop put on by Mary Morrissey at our church. She was inspirational. She told of story of when at the tender age of eighteen, two months after giving birth, she was diagnosis with kidney disease and given six months to live. She was visited by Chaplain who provided her with something she could believe – that all the toxicity in her body could be swept out of the good kidney and into the one that they were about to remove. She recovered.
It began with the idea that maybe it was possible to be healed. I remember when she told the story she said she didn’t really believe it was possible but she knew he believed it was possible and so she piggybacked off of his faith.
You have to know God answers all prayers. Maybe you don’t believe you are strong enough or good enough or whatever, but if you can find someone or something you believe in enough to allow for the possibility, then miracles occur.
They are natural. They are the reestablishment of right order. God always answers prayers. Are you ready to receive the answer?
I hope so. Maybe you don’t know that you are not really sick. But I will know it for you, and if you can believe in that, it is enough.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.