As I find myself dealing with daily life, some days it feels like there is no room for the Course. Intellectually, I know this is a lie: just an ego trick meant to take me off course (pun intended!) Today’s daily lesson begins the review period and since I have done all these lessons a number of times, ego wants to dismiss them all, especially since it is freaking out in the background telling me that life is tugging at me with all the stuff that needs to be done. The intro says, “The purpose of your learning is to enable you to bring the quiet with you, and to heal distress and turmoil. This is not done by avoiding them and seeking a haven of isolation for yourself.” The review reminds me that “What I see is the projection of my own errors of thought. I do not understand what I see because it is not understandable. There is no sense in trying to understand it. But there is every reason to let it go, and make room for what can be seen and understood and loved.”
So, I am trying not to believe the thought that tells me that I don’t have time for this today. I am trying to go beyond the littleness that wants to possess me and pull me into the rhythm of work problems. Suddenly it occurs to me that this type of day is exactly what the Course is attempting to teach me to rise above. It is trying to teach me to “bring the quiet with” me.
Because, let’s face it, I have no problem believing the truth of these lessons in the quiet of my living room when the world is leaving me alone. It is quite another story when life feels like it is tugging.
Letting go of fighting “what is” is a huge piece of learning to apply these lessons. Sure, I feel the time crunch as I watch the clock ticking and know that very shortly now I will need to take my shower, get dressed and scoot my ass out the door. It’s not a matter of shutting the world out. It’s a matter of inviting in the chaos and knowing that it doesn’t have to affect me. There is no chaos in the “real world.” There is activity but it is all in divine right order. Everything that is happening is perfect but I cannot see that if I am set on my own ideas of how things should be happening.
As often happens in these moments, suddenly I am not tugged at for a little while. Suddenly the only tugging that exists is the internal tugs of ego trying to cast a negative pall over everything.
Wow. All the things I need to learn.
Part of what I am learning here is to be okay with the discomfort. Discomfort is a sign of growth. It is actually a sign that I am on the right track. It’s like the chaos of the world – it will continue to rattle me until I learn to look beyond it.
Nothing real can be threatened. The rest are just errors of thought tugging at my peace.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.