Sometimes the easiest way to solve a problem is to stop being part of it. You can’t fight for peace – you must “be the change you want to see in the world,” (as Gandhi said). I say this, in part, because it helps when I remember that complaining about things (what A Course in Miracles refers to as grievances) is NOT the path to changing them. Like most humans, I sometimes act as if my function is to point out what’s wrong with the world. But I made the world I see. ”And what would happen to the world you see, if all its underpinnings were removed? Your concept of the world depends upon this concept of the self. And both would go, if either one were ever raised to doubt.” I must remind myself that I am not doing myself any favors by focusing on what I think needs to be changed and complaining about it. “All attack is Self attack.” Pointing out what is wrong with the world is really just edifying what is wrong with me. It is projection. It is an ego gambit to try to rid itself of what it doesn’t like. Oh dear!
I bring this up, in part, because politics makes me insane. I witness what is happening and although I try like mad to make love my highest priority, I am not always good at seeing innocence. “You have become at odds with the world as you perceive it, because you think it is antagonistic to you. This is a necessary consequence of what you have done. You have projected outward what is antagonistic to what is inward, and therefore you would have to perceive it this way. That is why you must realize that your hatred is in your mind and not outside it before you can get rid of it; and why you must get rid of it before you can perceive the world as it really is.”
“Be the change to want to see in the world.”
I end up asking myself what part of me is an arrogant, entitled asshole?
I remember hearing about this retreat where complaining was against the rules. Any utterance of complaints meant you were immediately placed on the change-you-want-to-see committee. Isn’t that how it should be? It’s not up to “them” to change things for us (going back to the entitled asshole idea!). It is up to us to come up with a better solution and implement it. But most of us would rather grumble than get up off our duffs and be part of the solution.
When I am honest about it, I see that, like most Americans, I do behave a tad entitled.
I don’t have good answers. My answer these days is always, “ask the Holy Spirit.” I don’t know any other solution. I can’t see the world filtered through ego and expect to see a loving world. I can’t treat people like they are out to screw me over and expect them to treat me lovingly. I can’t be suspicious of motive and expect a good outcome. I can’t.
Now, ego’s argument in these instances is that if we don’t protect ourselves, if we let our guard down we are fools and we get what is coming to us.
“We said before that the ego vacillates between suspiciousness and viciousness. It remains suspicious as long as you despair of yourself. It shifts to viciousness when you decide not to tolerate self-abasement and seek relief. Then it offers you the illusion of attack as a ‘solution.’”
When I think that way, I feel like a more reasonable person. It feels better to give “others” the benefit of the doubt rather than being suspicious of their motives.
I ask for guidance. I remember that one of the characteristics of God’s teachers is gentleness. “Harm is impossible for God’s teachers. They can neither harm nor be harmed.”
I really need to give up watching politics. It can’t be healthy for me to see guilt everywhere. It’s not that I think we need to allow the billionaires to run roughshod over the American people, but I must have faith that things are working out. I must be the Peace of God. The reason the teachers of God find their safety in defenseless is that truth needs no defense. Truth seeks only love.
“ Attempt to solve no problems but within the holy instant’s surety. For there the problem will be answered and resolved. Outside there will be no solution, for there is no answer there that could be found. Nowhere outside a single, simple question is ever asked. The world can only ask a double question. One with many answers can have no answers. None of them will do. It does not ask a question to be answered, but only to restate its point of view.
4 All questions asked within this world are but a way of looking, not a question asked. A question asked in hate cannot be answered, because it is an answer in itself. A double question asks and answers, both attesting the same thing in different form. The world asks but one question. It is this: “Of these illusions, which of them is true? Which ones establish peace and offer joy? And which can bring escape from all the pain of which this world is made?” Whatever form the question takes, its purpose is the same. It asks but to establish sin is real, and answers in the form of preference. “Which sin do you prefer? That is the one that you should choose. The others are not true. What can the body get that you would want the most of all? It is your servant and also your friend. But tell it what you want, and it will serve you lovingly and well.” And this is not a question, for it tells you what you want and where to go for it. It leaves no room to question its beliefs, except that what it states takes question’s form.
5 A pseudo-question has no answer. It dictates the answer even as it asks. Thus is all questioning within the world a form of propaganda for itself. Just as the body’s witnesses are but the senses from within itself, so are the answers to the questions of the world contained within the questions that are asked. Where answers represent the questions, they add nothing new and nothing has been learned. An honest question is a learning tool that asks for something that you do not know. It does not set conditions for response, but merely asks what the response should be. But no one in a conflict state is free to ask this question, for he does not want an honest answer where the conflict ends. T.27.IV.3-5
To find the answer, I must be willing to give up my attachment to guilt. I must forgive myself for using the body’s eyes to see rather than Christ’s vision. I must take all things to the Holy Spirit and let go of what I think I know.
“ In the holy instant nothing happens that has not always been. Only the veil that has been drawn across reality is lifted. Nothing has changed. Yet the awareness of changelessness comes swiftly as the veil of time is pushed aside. No one who has not yet experienced the lifting of the veil, and felt himself drawn irresistibly into the light behind it, can have faith in love without fear.”
“Faith in love without fear.” This is what I have been seeking. To be the change I want to see in the world, I must have faith in love without fear. I must know that all I am seeking is already here. I must trust God to show it to me.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.