“But finally He comes Himself, and takes us in His Arms and sweeps away the cobwebs of our sleep. His gift of grace is more than just an answer. It restores all memories the sleeping mind forgot; all certainty of what Love’s meaning is.”W-168, 3:4 I have begun reading the CE (Complete Edition) version of A Course in Miracles, recently published by the Circle of Atonement (Robert Perry), and unfortunately for me, only available in old school book form, as in not electronically. Nonetheless, I am grateful to own it, as I am grateful for the Companion group I have joined on Facebook – it’s a group that is basically reading the new version together. Somehow, it’s easier to do things in a group. As solitary as I often am, I still appreciate the support.
It is a larger book than the Foundation for Inner Peace version or even the Urtext (original) version. What I have discovered so far is that already I feel more connected to God, to Jesus, through reading it. In the introduction, Robert Perry, the editor of the CE version, talks about the question of authorship. Newcomers to our Tuesday night group sometimes ask, who wrote A Course in Miracles and although Helen Schucman is the scribe, it is generally accepted that Jesus is the one talking to her. Jesus, who is considered an elder brother.
Jesus says, “3 Awe should be reserved for revelation, to which it is perfectly and correctly applicable. It is not appropriate for miracles because a state of awe is worshipful, implying that one of a lesser order stands before his Creator. You are a perfect creation, and should experience awe only in the presence of the Creator of perfection. The miracle is therefore a sign of love among equals. Equals should not be in awe of one another because awe implies inequality. It is therefore an inappropriate reaction to me. An elder brother is entitled to respect for his greater experience, and obedience for his greater wisdom. He is also entitled to love because he is a brother, and to devotion if he is devoted. It is only my devotion that entitles me to yours. There is nothing about me that you cannot attain. I have nothing that does not come from God. The difference between us now is that I have nothing else. This leaves me in a state which is only potential in you.
4 “No man cometh unto the Father but by me” does not mean that I am in any way separate or different from you except in time, and time does not really exist. The statement is more meaningful in terms of a vertical rather than a horizontal axis. You stand below me and I stand below God. In the process of “rising up,” I am higher because without me the distance between God and man would be too great for you to encompass. I bridge the distance as an elder brother to you on the one hand, and as a Son of God on the other. My devotion to my brothers has placed me in charge of the Sonship, which I render complete because I share it. This may appear to contradict the statement “I and my Father are one,” but there are two parts to the statement in recognition that the Father is greater.”
So I am trying to rise up to Jesus as I find a new rhythm for my daily routine. So far, I feel like I am doing a crappy (not to judge!) job. Work tugs. My usual practices have been disrupted.
I do the five-minute meditation and realize how tense I am. Suddenly it is like when I enter the place of prayer. I shift into a lightness. I realize how badly I have done the daily practice, despite thinking of God (talking to God, talking about God) all day long. My mind still needs lots of training.
I look at my ACIM quote app, which says, “…the only meaningful prayer is for forgiveness, because those who have been forgiven have everything.” T.3.V.6:2 Of course, I need to forgive myself for the crappy job I do. I need to reconnect to “His gift of grace.”
I go to the website where I look everything up (in the Foundation for Inner Peace version) and to find the quote and then read, “The prayer for forgiveness is nothing more than a request that you may be able to recognize what you already have.”
I already have everything. This is good to remember on a day when I awoke from a loop of dreams about getting to the bank to deposit money so I don’t end up overdrawn.
The gift of grace is mine the moment I remember it and claim it.
I need to get to work. As much as I’d love to just stay home and read my new CE version of the Course, I have work to do. Part of that work is to remember the arms of God where the gift of grace lies.
Namaste, my friends, Namaste.